Millions of lifetimes I have loved, hated, killed, and created. I have been everything, seen everything, had everything, save one thing, which is not a thing, which actually is no-thing. I have accumulated and I have suppressed.

I have been the richest and the poorest, the most famous and totally unknown. I have had sex in every way imaginable and experienced every human fantasy, but almost never beyond the human mind. Then in one moment everything I ever knew and experienced vanished in one single instant, and I knew ultimate bliss and truth

My entire being had been opened and everything had become nothing, and I tasted eternity from the inside. In this life I have been a mormon missionary, teenage idol, reality TV-star, erotic photographer, and tantra magician, spiritual seeker and world traveller. I was born with many talents and a beautiful body, but I was still lost.

Now I have found and experienced my eternal home, my essence, my being, and everything is forever transformed and beautiful. I don’t know what will happen in the here and now or where I am going, but I am finally at peace and living in orgasmic ecstasy for the first time in all my lives.

I am so full of love and wonder, and all I can say is, WOW, I never imagined it, the happening would happen to me, beyond the I.


Patrick Castielle
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